Author: thedawnofcreation

Supplies:

• plastic eggs
• cotton, polyester, rayon, silk fabric
• ribbon
• ModPodge, matte or gloss finish
• hot glue gun and glue sticks
• fabric Scissors
• adornments
• felt
• thicker embroidery needles

This project is a great way to use up scraps of ribbons and fabric.  When selecting fabrics, silk-weight fabrics are great because their fluidity works well with the curved surface of the eggs, but quilting cotton is fine as well.  For plastic eggs, I found these large eggs by Creatology at Michael’s and thoroughly enjoyed their eggshell textured surface for good gluing.

I tried a few different ways of decorating the eggs, the first is a basic ribbon wrap.  For these large size of eggs, a standard roll of 9 feet of ribbon was enough to cover the egg.  My first ribbon had double ruffles, and created a wonderful effect on the egg.  I was using up pieces of ribbon, didn’t know if I would have enough, so in this case I started gluing around the midsection of the egg first.

Apply a couple inches of hot glue along the flat center of the ribbon, then press that down onto the surface of the egg.  If eyeing straight lines is not a natural talent of yours, you may want to lightly draw a guideline around the center of the egg to help you start.  After you complete the first rotation, slightly veer the ribbon to one side of your starting point, and continue to glue and wrap towards the tip of the egg.  With this ruffled ribbon, I had to hold back the ruffle of the previous row as I adhered fresh sections so the ruffles did not get stuck under the ribbon, and also to keep the rows laying closely together, to maximize the loft of the ruffles.  When you get to the tip of the egg, place plenty of glue on the surface of the egg, and keep circling the ribbon until there is no more surface space to cover.  If your ribbon is prone to raveling at the end, just compress the width of the ribbon, tuck it under itself by a small amount, and securely glue that down.  Now return to the center of the egg, and wrap ribbon to the other end of the egg.

This turned out to be my favorite of the eggs, because there is a slight squoosh when you hold the egg, it’s such a textural delight.

The other ribbon I used had small flourishes above and below the central line of the ribbon.  When you apply the ribbon, keep in mind that these parts will overlap onto the previous row, and you will have to decide which end of the egg to start gluing from in order to create the overlap look that you like.  I was so tickled to have swirls in both the ribbon design as well as the wrapping of the ribbon around the egg!  Notice how I started wrapping at the top of the egg, so the overlap parts point towards the top of the egg.  This reminded me of a pinecone, and of the pineal gland.

The next ribbon style I tried was way more complicated, but I used up several bits of ribbon, and it ended up having a lovely Springtime in Paris look to it.

Collect your ribbons, cutting lengths that are about 1-1/2 times the length of the egg from tip to tip. Lay them side by side and make sure that width is enough to cover the circumference of the egg, plus a little more because the ribbons will be overlapping slightly.

Next I cut two small circles of 100% wool felt.  You want to use a felt that is dense enough to hold all the knotted ribbon you are about to pull through it.  If you only have the thinner synthetic felt, do a double layer of the circle.  Now, knot one end of the ribbon and pull it through the felt.  Leave about 1/8 inch around the edge of the felt free of ribbon, as well as the center area of the felt.

    Once your ribbon is all sewn through, lay the felt circle knotted-side down, and splay all the ribbons.  If your ribbons have a shiny side and a dull side, be sure the dull side faces up.  You may have to rotate the knot to make this so.  Be sure the ribbons are as UNcrossed as possible, as it will make gluing them much easier.  When all the ribbons are prepared, slather the top of the egg with hot glue and attach it to the center of the felt circle.  And yes, an octopus comes to mind!

  

So, if you still have any patience and perseverance left from sorting those ribbons, get ready.  It’s time to start gluing.  Taking one ribbon at a time, brush some Modpodge onto its underside, and carefully align it down to the bottom of the egg.  Take the next ribbon, apply the Podge, and lay it towards the egg bottom so that it just barely overlaps the first ribbon, right at the center, widest part of the egg.  The ribbons will overlap more notably near the top and bottom of the egg, so use how it just barely overlaps in the center as your guide for laying down the ribbon.  Ribbon by ribbon, keep working your way around the egg.  I chose Modpodge rather than hot glue for applying the ribbons because I didn’t want the thickness of the hot glue to ruin the smoothness of the ribbon.  And, if you merely hot glued the bottom end of the ribbon, it would bulk up the bottom end of the egg as well as leave your carefully layered ribbons susceptible to disarray. And, because Modpodge requires time to dry, I only glued about one fourth of the circumference at a time.  Trim off the ends of the ribbon so they centrally align at the bottom.  When you’re done gluing each ribbon, give it time to dry, then paint on a layer of glossy Modpodge around the whole egg (actually, don’t paint the top felt circle.)

  

  

You’re almost done!  Take the second felt circle and hot glue it to the bottom, to cover the ribbon ends.  I added some decorative embroidery to mine.  To cover the knots on the top, I had these little paper flowers on-hand to hot glue onto there.  But little ribbon flowers would be good as well.  You can buy those pre-made or make them yourself.

  

And, ooo-la-la, you’re done!

Ok, we’re halfway there.  It’s time for some fabric-wrapping.  The thing that got me started on all this was imagining how well a spiral of fabric could overlay onto an egg.  So I created my template, that of a double-wound spiral.  I traced a circle, then eyeballed drawing a spiral that was about an inch thick, until I neared the center of the circle.  I went back and drew a second line that halved the spiral (so, 1/2 inch thick) and instead of converging the ends to the two lines at the center of the circle, I terminated them in a curl. When the fabric is cut, you have two spirals of fabric.  The size of your staring circle depends on the size of the egg you’re using, an oatmeal canister lid served me well here; a soup can would be a good size for smaller eggs.

  

As you adhere the spiral with Modpodge, just do an inch or two at a time.  Start with the center, wind outward.  You want to avoid puckers in the fabric as you wind it, and sometimes your winding will overlap the previous row of fabric, in order to keep it flat.  You will cover about half of the egg with each spiral.

 

Next, I applied thin curved strips of other fabrics to fill in the gaps and add color and texture.

  

I kept adding strips until the whole egg was covered.  I made one egg with evenly distributed color variance, and one that was half and half (with my filler strips being the same fabric as my spiral.) I added ribbon adornments to finish the eggs.

  

For the fully fabric-wrapped eggs, I cut a rectangle of fabric, wide enough to cover the circumference of the egg, and tall enough to cover from the center of the top point to the center of the bottom. Then I cut triangular wedges from the top and bottom; for the narrower top point I cut taller triangles, for the less-rounded bottom of the egg, I cut stouter triangles.

Modpodge one longitudinal section at a time, carefully overlapping fabric as it curves towards the tips of the egg, and being sure to keep puckers out of the egg.  The advantage of ModPodge is that if you do get a section of fabric that insists on puckering, saturate that area with the glue and smash it as flat as much as possible.  This usually gets the puckers out.  Work your way around the egg until it is fully covered.

Finish decorating the egg with more fabric pieces, ribbons, embroidered decals or even adhesive crystals.

And now we’re done!

I’m still on a spiral kick. There’s just something in my consciousness lately that is interminably walking the labyrinth, and perpetually in motion with spirals and cycles. I keep coming back to things, to myself even, but in new ways. It has been challenging because I am both churning along these vast arcs of time, yet falling through into the eternal hub of cycles that forever iterate the many facets of the One. I have been having a hard time, keeping track of time. But it has been that way for a while now, so I’m actually quite practiced in coping with it. Reading is a great way to cope.

Dan Brown’s new book, Origin, has a spiral on the cover (in the US at least). When you see an image of a spiral, it is both leading somewhere (in or out, depending on your perspective) yet is self-contained by its own circumference. It’s a brilliant way of letting you know, that you are only ever going anywhere to experience how you already got there. The spiral is one of the most ancient and ubiquitous symbols used by humanity, insistently etched into stones all over the planet, and it is still a mystery to the modern mind as to where they were going with it. Only Time will tell.

When it comes to plumbing the depths of ancient and superimposed symbols, you can’t do better than Easter. Anyone who’s ever breathed importance upon Springtime, Rebirth, Resurrection, Renewal has dipped their toe into the well of Easter symbols and enjoyed the ripple of how they ultimately tell the story of “YES!”

It occurred to me for the first time just this past week, how the whole psychology of Eastertime must be different for those living in the Southern Hemisphere. Is it more religion-focused, less season-based? And how does it affect their experience of religion, if Jesus resurrects into the autumnal, dying time of the year, rather than the vernal rebirth of it? Does it change what is understood of the Resurrection, when one’s outer world is doing the opposite of what is being celebrated at this time of year? Does it give a greater insight into the nature of winter? I need to investigate, are there even many climates in the Southern Hemisphere that reflect the same seasonal changes as we experience with deciduous forests in the North. I welcome any feedback, because I’d like to know.

Anyway, I’ve been spiraling towards Easter with deep thoughts and springy, creative juices. While putting away Christmas/winter decorations, I found an old art project I made in 4^th grade. I’m sure many of you made these too. We used the plastic egg our mother’s pantyhose came in, and shellacked a bunch of tissue paper squares onto it. Mine is over 35 years old, and has held up well. It was inspiring to see it endure with sheen-in-tact. So, I decided I wanted to make some fabric-wrapped eggs. It was time for more spirals in form and action. I gathered the accouterments (hello ModPodge!), took a deep breath into the heart of Time and Creation, and watched how it all coalesced into the birth of the Great Cosmic (Easter) Egg. Actually, the birth of 8 Great Cosmic (Easter) Eggs, 8 origins of 8 worlds to call my own, (and to display nicely on my coffee table.) Talk about symbols – lay them all out and it’s like taking a walk through infinity.

 

 

 

 

 

Coming soon, instructions for Fabric and Ribbon Wrapped Easter Eggs.

I live in an apartment and require a great many quarters to do my laundry.  I’m in the habit of getting a roll of quarters at a time, and I’ve been keeping them in a small tupperware container.  It’s a perfectly fine system, but I decided I wanted an easier way of seeing how many quarters I have on-hand, as well as of plucking out however many I need to take to the laundry room.  Plus, I wanted a quick and easy way to appease my Crafty.

Please refer to the original Fabric-Wrapped Clothesline Bowl post for detailed directions on how to work with these materials.  However, here is a mosaic to show my start in how to shape this sort of thing, as well as my successful result.  I used three long widths of cording as the base, then steeply angled two rows, then finished with a final two rows.  It all feels so…tidy!

What I really love about this is that when I hold it, there is something about the heft of the quarters, and the way they are cradled, that transports me to ancient Egypt.  I feel the steady and quiet soar of Ra’s Solar Boat.  In patience and perseverance it spans the skies to define our day, then traverses the Underworld and its challenging darknesses at night. I am grateful to say, my trips the the basement laundry room hold no threat (other than the occasional sacrificed quarter to an uncooperative machine). Here’s to our safe delivery through each and every day….

Here’s some basic info on Ra’s Solar Barges.

In my last post, I mentioned that I need to get a canvas to do some painting, and this showed up in my inbox today.  I’ve done their Sketchbook Project before, and this sounds fun too!

https://www.brooklynartlibrary.com/canvasproject

I just love it when the energies serve me!

BTW, here’s a link to the digitized sketchbook that I submitted, the theme we had to work with was “Message from a Future Self”:

https://www.sketchbookproject.com/library/17333

 

 

 

In the first part of this train of thought, I mostly focused on how you remove layers to reveal your truth in art or in living. This wonderful video and artist sort of blows that thinking apart. Something I insinuated before is that truth has a final moment/stage/outcome, and it is just a matter of sifting through the filler space until you identify that truth. But, as seen above, when we participate in a living space, truth can only exist throughout the moments in which you recognize it. Trying to freeze a truth in a moment of time may kill the journey it has to take, along with the creativity that explores it.

As artists and crafters we have the assumption that there will be a finished product, even if it is an expressive product like choreography or a play. There is always a point where we reflect upon the thing and say, “Yes, it is done.” (Or at least, “This is the best I can do.”) Our cultural stereotypes of artists seem to have them suffering from both starvation and lingering doubt over whether it ever truly is done, (even when the masses pay big money to see that very incarnation of that very thing YOU made.) Is it done? Even if you feel totally fulfilled by your creation during a moment in time, give it a few years and you will be ready to see the other scenes you could have shown, or the other stories you could have told (thank you, fan fiction).

Do you remember after the Harry Potter series ended, we eventually found out that Dumbledore was gay, and that Harry really should have ended up with Hermione? J. K. Rowling can go on to explore other stories and realities, but she will never be done with Harry’s world (and yes, partially because the fans will never let her be done.) If you are both blessed enough and cursed enough to vividly create a whole world, exploration of that world will never end. The world beckons and there is always another story to tell.

So, back to Rassouli and his moving, living art. Even when this infinite world is on a finite canvas, here we go diving through moments of time and layers of truth. This artist shows us how to pause for a moment, appreciate the perfection of what currently is, then let it all go. In watching the video I kept having moments of anticipation of where the image was heading, then being surprised about where it went. And certainly, there were little anguished moments of not wanting to see the current image morph, because it was perfect as it was. It takes courage to allow the perfect moments to pass, along with the unsavory ones. I have read that in the mythologies, whenever a god falls in love with a human, it is the eternal falling in love with a moment in time. I often create things that I simply fall in love with, and because of the color or texture or shape of the thing, it counts as being a sensual love. But do I have the courage to keep creating that thing, and to allow it to transform completely? Is there such a thing as over-creating?

I imagine there is a safety in creating a series, because each piece is part of the greater story. No single incarnation has to be sacrificed or hidden into the layers, you just create a new piece and let that be the next evolution. But what if I as the creator and witness of a piece, can sustain the expression of all the layers through memory and depth? Will I become the story, by acting out the experience of the story? And is the story any less true if it doesn’t become a permanent expression of who I am?

There are a lot of artistic materials that are impractical for constant reworking ; painting is probably the best form for exploring this. I plan to start my own painting and see if I can simply allow it to keep living in the state of ‘being created.” I’ll share photos as I do – but first I need to get a canvas.

A few days ago my enthrallment level went high and stayed high, after seeing this video. Neolithic Goddess figurines are so much better to play with than Barbies, and always have been.

I watched the video several times, each time loving more how the artist turned immortal images of stone into supple and fleshy dancers, and how it all was so natural. So I went on a quest, first to youtube to see Nina Paley’s other videos, then to Wikipedia for her bio. While there, I crossed an acronym I’d never heard of before and decided to investigate. And that’s what led me down an hours-long rabbit hole research into discovering a vast world of words, definitions, faux antitheses and scathing contentions, in this particular case between transgender and feminist communities.

It was fascinating, reading the vitriol and antagonisms that flourish so quickly these days, thanks to social media.   And the acrimony (so supple in its attentions), and rancor (so fleshy in it wallops), and angst (lo! the heaving bosoms), all in what is ultimately distraction and name-calling, Really, it was fascinating, and I got to thinking about objections and negativity, and objects and negative space.

When creating any scene, you have to decide things, like: will the objects take precedence, will the negative space (background) be your actual focus, how will you use the negative space to define the objects, will you use patterns to differentiate the objects from their space, will you soften the objects so the space can be seen as an entirety. You have to be able to imagine many layers of the scene you’re creating, and a practiced creator knows how to interrelate those layers in order to fulfill the scene you want it to be.

In carving those goddess figures, the ancient artists needed to remove the negative space from the stone, in order to reveal the divine image it held. In creating a relief carving, the slightly less-ancient artists needed to know how to remove planes of existence to find their chosen divine images. Knowing how to remove the negative spaces to reveal the highest form (the divine aspect) is the talent of the Artist. Had those artists been warriors, they would have thrown the stones as their means of making a statement. Had those artists been great leaders, they would have insisted on using those walls and planes as an engulfing form of defense and power. Protection has its value, but how often does it reveal the divine?

The Artist, and to greater effect the Creator, (both born of you or me,) are the ones who know how to dialog with their mediums. Whether they are working with paint or stone or words or communities of people, it is the creative aspect that knows how to see through all the negative space and strip away the unnecessary in order to show the stark divinity (i.e. highest potential) of any given form. And this knowingness of what can be found is ancient, in you or me. Any form that presents itself to our attention, is the invitation to become creative, see into it, and decide which level of it you will reveal, which level you will call truth.

 

Supplies:

• Cotton clothesline cording
• ¼ yard total of fabric, at least 21 inch lengths
• thread
• fresh sewing machine needle, a universal type is fine
• binder clip
• straight pins
• means of cutting strips of fabric

When selecting fabrics, quilting cottons are easiest, but anything that doesn’t have too much stretch, and is not too prone to fraying when cut into thin strips will work well.  When selecting threads, either to match or to contrast with your fabrics, you can use different colors in the bobbin so the inside of the bowl and the outside look different.  Cotton or polyester threads are fine.

 

Steps:

• Cut strips of fabric, about ¾ inch wide and at least 21 inches long; it is ok if they are slightly uneven
• Make sure there is a clean-cut end to the cotton clothesline. Leaving 1 inch at end, start wrapping fabric strip around the cording. Use a 45 degree angle as you wrap. Be sure that the fabric overlaps on each rotation; with practice you’ll find that 1/8-1/4 inch of coverage is good, otherwise there’s unnecessary waste of fabric length and more thickness to sew through. It doesn’t really matter if you wrap clockwise or counter clockwise, you will be doing a lot of wrapping so find the direction that works well for you.  Wrap several inches then binder clip the end.  PROTIP: roll up fabric strip and slowly unroll as you go around cording, to lessen any fraying edges on fabric. 
• Counter-wrap the tip and tuck; spiral-roll the wrapped cording until it is about 1 inch in diameter. Insert the straight pins crosswise to secure the roll. Make sure the ends of the pins stay inbedded in the roll, and don’t poke out the other side. PROTIP: the cording is prone to twisting and tightening up as you wrap, so be sure to untwist and loosen it up as you go.

 

• Use the zigzag stitch on your sewing machine, making sure the stitch is wide enough to securely connect two cords together. Use a machine foot that can accommodate the width of the stitches (usually the standard foot will do). Also make sure your needle is set to stop in the down position. Starting at the center of your rolled cording, zigzag stitch (slowly so you don’t break the needle on the straight pins) to secure the very center, then slowly rotate the piece as you continue to stitch. Hold the heads of the strait pins to steer the piece. PROTIP: place the spiral so the expansion of the piece is to the outside of machine, which will leave more room to maneuver the bowl base and start working on the sides.

 

• When the piece is wide enough to rotate with your fingers, you can remove the straight pins, raise the foot and pull the cording to undo the extra loops that have built up.  Lower the foot and keep rotating the piece as you sew the two edges of cording together, until you have 2 inches left of the fabric. Look at your stitches to be sure the tension is good.

 

• Take your next strip of fabric and lay the end under the first strip. Continue wrapping, and sewing as you go, and use the binder clip to hold the fabric in place as you do. Continue sewing and spiraling until the base is the diameter you want.
• If you want it to remain a mat, skip ahead to see how you finish the edge. If you want to create a bowl, tilt the base up at an angle (45 -90 degree angle, depending on how sudden of a curve you want) and keep it tilted at that angle while you sew around the base. (It is helpful to mark the start of where you start sewing at a tilt, so you’ll be able to keep track of how many full rows you create up the sides of the bowl. In the photo, you can see a contrasting piece of thread is an easy way to mark this.) Within a few rotations of sewing around the base, and forcibly tilting the base while you sew, you will have created the curve for you bowl and will now be building up the sides of your bowl . So do NOT keep tilting the base, because you want the sides of the bowl to level out as you sew-in-the-round.

 

• When your bowl gets to the height you like, be sure you have sewn the full circumference of your last row (remember that contrasting thread we used to mark the start). Cut the cording at a very severe angle and be sure you have about 3 inches of fabric strip left to finish off the end. Wrap the fabric around the end of the cording, and pin it to the edge of the bowl. You want this to blend as evenly as possible so the edge has a ‘smooth’ finish. Now continue sewing past the end of the wrapped cording, making sure that zigzag stitch helps compress the remains of that fabric strip to the edge of the bowl. When you remove the bowl from the machine, leave extra thread in case you want to even out the tapering. (NOTE: these edge-finishing photos show how the bowl looks when I added a lip, and those instructions are below.  Please note the extreme angle to cut the cording.)

 

If you want a clean-edged bowl, you are done!  Just do minor trimming and tie off the thread ends.

A few variations: leaving openings near the edge so you can weave ribbon into the bowl, or adding a lip to your bowl.

• To create openings near the edge, when your bowl is only 2 or 3 rows away from the finished height that you want, remove it from the sewing machine. Using straight pins, mark around the circumference of the bowl where you want the openings to be. Try to keep the openings evenly spaced. NOTE: I’ve placed pins on a bowl that is already completely finished. I just wanted you to see how the pins would look on the edging when you’re adding openings to your bowl.

• Return your bowl to the sewing machine and continue to zigzag stitch until you come to the first marked opening. Switch to a normal straight stitch, and sew through either the right or left side row of cording, and just for the length of what you want the opening to be. Now switch back to the zigzag stitch until you reach the start of the next opening you want to create. Keep sewing like this until you’ve finished the row, then go back to sewing-in-the-round with just the zigzag stitch for a few more rows until you have the height you want on the bowl.

 

• To add a lip to your bowl, remove the bowl from the sewing machine. Rest the bowl on its top rim, and so it’s to the right-hand side of the sewing needle, and reorient where you left off with the sewing needle.
• Slightly compress the side of the bowl as you start sewing-in-the-round. Do this for about two rows, until the curve of the lip is created. Sew-in-the-round on the now flat plane of the lip, until the lip is the width that you want.

 

• Finish the edging as noted above, for a plain-edged bowl.

Now I have a perfect and lovely means of keeping my sewing area clean……

You can add buttons, ribbon trims around the outside, weave trims through your bowl, or add embellishments.  When you enter the vortex, everything is possible!

After two years of dormancy, my attentions here have definitely resurrected the blog.  And now I even have a whole new vision for what I’d like to share, so that counts as reincarnating it too.

Present day, present purpose.  The ABOUT page elaborates on my new intentions for this space, so I won’t be redundant.  I am excited to have an Interlude to share, and already, the creative process is offering up a few surprises.  This project is all about ‘getting into the vortex.’

I invited my friend Fran over for some collaborative creativity, and I’m glad that she is the inaugural co-conspirator for my first Interlude project.  It is her own focused and self-aware blog that inspired me to return to thedawnofcreation.  Please see my sidebar link to Fran’s blog: Something For (Almost) Nothing.  She pairs baking and birds, and I literally cannot stop smiling every time I read her posts.

For our creative time, Fran and I considered a few project options, and decided to make some fabric-wrapped clothesline bowls.  I made several recently for a craft fair, and have become smitten with the spiraling nature of the whole project.  A few years ago I saw this video that suggests our solar system is helical; the animation of our planets spiraling around the sun was incredibly calming to see:

And if you’ve ever whirled in dance or joy, you’ll know that it feels good too, just spinning around your central point and letting all the inner and outer rest of it fly off into its own space and trajectories.  Even today, as I enjoyed a walk, I saw a little boy get off the bus and spin-walk his way down the block.  Every few steps he’d stumble, pause to refind his balance, and whirl away some more.  It was unabashed, kinetic, and beautiful.  (I’m sure his balance would have persevered if he hadn’t been wearing his winter coat and heavy-looking backpack.)

So, fellow Creator,  imagine the thrill of taking thin strips of fabric and wrapping them around a central cording, while also sewing together a spiral plane and then lateral planes of the cording into a dense form that exists in time and space.  A form, I might add, that stores your doodads too!  For one who loves to merge craft and metaphysics, it’s a dream come true. Please join me in the days to come, as I enact the miracles of learning how to use basic blog technology, present photographic evidence of ideas turning into form, offer sane discussions of how those ideas become physical reality, and explore the creative process while housed in a human body.  We’ll get trippy, spinning our way into the clarity of the vortex.

Here are some images from our creative time together.  An excellent point that emerged from this, is that when learning something new, or doing something for the first time, keep it simple.  Even though our options for creating are endless, they can be overwhelming.  So one of the keys to good Creatorship is knowing what you have to work with, and work with it in wisdom.

For our super Fabric-wrapped Clothesline Bowl Day, I had everything we needed, and pre-selected fabrics from my stash that I felt would translate well with this project. Big surprise #1 for the day – Fran said she’d been inspired by reds lately,  and after playing with some combinations, ultimately chose a calm, whispering white-washed aqua.  Big surprise #2 – Fran so enjoyed the feel, shape and look of the base of her bowl, that she chose to finish it there.  So now she has a divinely spiraled and embodied mat.  Without doubt, it is perfection in density.

 

 

Stay tuned:  Fabric-Wrapped Clothesline Bowl Instructions are on the way …

I got an email saying my WordPress password had been reset, and since I had to deal with the details of figuring that out, I decided it must be time to post something.

This past month has been unique.  I disengaged from an on-line community I had been part of for years.  The message board was shut down by the operators so we all had to move on and/or relocalize somewhere else.  I haven’t joined any of the new assemblies because I have wanted time to get back into living to see if that near-constant inner-dialog and editing of “what do I want to post about this moment” would end.  In the past when I’ve been places, it’s been hard for me to take photos because I just want to be where I am and not constantly interfere with that by trying capture the moment from behind the lense of a camera.  That same sentiment has built up around posting, and even though I sort of willy-nilly started this blog awhile back, I simply haven’t wanted to condense my living into any statements about my living.

However, unwiring/rewiring from the habit of posting my life, after each little episode of having felt like I just ‘lived’ it, has been interesting, and has forged a new design in my language use.  I like the added stillness and silence, internally.  Calming this Writer aspect, the Commentator aspect too, has made me realize how much of my living still felt like it was inside a Richard Scarry book, where everything is pictured and named. Life is feeling more illustrated, just form (and for my entertainment) rather than  being didactic form.  There’s nothing left to learn from it, or to own of it, through words.  And that’s a little funny because more and more my life is feeling like a series of snapshots, of contexts that are worth a thousand words but are totally separate from the context of any other moment.

…I feel like there’s more to say, the Writer in me wants to wrap up this post in a tidy, literate way, but the words have stopped moving through me, so I’m done for now.

So, I just sort of signed up for a free blog.  There wasn’t an agenda with it, I’ve grown into being rather taciturn over the years, yet now there’s this space amid the ethers to call my own and to fill with myself, to greater or lesser degrees.  Now I’ll have to start writing again.  Let’s see, I could write odes to my new Bernina, finally finish my seven book juvie lit series called Arc’s End, have deep thoughts, try to explain the world, rant e-aloud the things that usually stay silently in my mind.  But it’s late, and I believe I’ll simply sleep on it.  I hope I remember I started this tomorrow; if I do, I’ll be back.